THE CONFESSION OF THE FIRST CHILD

Sometimes,I wondered why God fated me to be the first child in the family? Hello,I'm not complaining,I just wondering why? Tell me what you know about the term first child? You have to figure out how to become a role model and best example to your younger siblings by hitting every great expectations.

As if you know,most of my friends were like,they've got so many siblings above them,so many 'abang' and 'kakak'.I got so envious sometimes,like yeah,everything that you have to do is already done by your older siblings.So,you just sitting somewhere,doing nothing,instead of fulfilling your own needs and doing what you want to do.

That is my opinion.I'm just thinking that I have no enough qualities to be that kind of person but at the same time I feel,if there is no one take a step to make it happens,who else? In the name of God,I don't think it is a burden to me at all.However,the little things that will lead to life failure really make me so frustrated about my life.

I'm not willing to make my parents feeling down and upset.Before I die,I want to make them happy,I want to make them proud of me,I want to make a change,a really big one and I want to be the reason of every smiles on their faces.I really have to fight for everything,not only for my own sake,but for my family as well.Life can be so hard,sometimes.

Listen,some of you might not understand this,so I suggest you just can go fuck yourself somewhere.

MATA SEPET OH MATA SEPET

Real life.

"Mula-mula aku ingatkan kau Cina.."

Twitter and blog.

"I thought you were Chinese at first,until I saw your name Muhammad Khalis!"

I received that a lot.Well,some people think that I am a Chinese guy.Just because of my small eyes! Some of them even asked me whether I had this Chinese ancestors run in my blood.Sometimes,I felt like they are fooling around with me,like,are you blind of something? Hahaha.I am so black to be Chinese,seriously.

Let me clear all of these now.

1. I am a fully 100% Malay.
2. Both of my parents are Malay.
3. Only my grandmother,which is my mother to my mother is Chinese.She was married to a Malay guy,which is my grandfather.
4. That is why all of my siblings and relatives,on my mother side got this kind of 'sepet' eyes.

Therefore,I am proud to say that I am a fully and completely Malay guy.I am happy to born as a Malay,speak Malay language and befriends with Malay people.

I don't care if people say Melayu this,Melayu that..Why should I care for? It's not that I am the only Malay here in this world,and for your better understanding,Melayu is a race of human,you should be cleared that no human made no mistakes.Whatever,I still have a total blast befriend with my Malay,Chinese and Indian friends! Variation is superbly awesome!

Ada orang cakap muka aku muka orang Borneo pulak...Takpe,stay cute,stay handsome,as always.Assalamualaikum.

ABANDONING YOUR OWN MOTHER.WHAT SAY YOU?

I just watched video Tinggalkan Ibu Lumpuh di Hotel.It is mainly about the daughter who brought her mother to a vacation,somewhere,and then left her mother in the hotel,alone.The mother,which is look like 80 something,cried so bad as she never thought her daughter dare to do that.

My reaction was like,wow that lady really have guts,aren't she? How dare she left her mother alone,just like that? How dare she abandoned the old,helpless woman all by herself? How dare she neglected her paralyzed mother? How dare she left the woman that once have died to make her live in this world?

I am sad,and piss off at the same time.If she really got problems,that is not the fucking solution.Come on,your mother is like fucking old,as she's going to die anytime and anywhere.Therefore,why won't you make the best of it on her last days in this world?

Dear friends,love your mother while she's still alive.Your mother is like,the real one in 6.2 billion.Trust me,you never want to be too late when it comes to it.

Sorry for the emotional post.To be truth,I haven't get back home since TWO MONTHS ago and I didn't see my mother ever since that.This is my first time.I miss you,I miss you so much.

GOODBYE FACEBOOK!

I just deleted my Facebook account last week. For those who asked why,here are some concrete reasons:

1. Almost 50% of my friends on Facebook..Hmm,to be honest,I don't know them! I want to keep like 200-300 friends at first,but since Facebook won't allow me to delete using 'mark all' type.. T__T
2. So many attention seekers on my friend list (I bet in yours,too),posting irrelevant comments,just to get 'Like' hits.It's annoying,so,yeah!
3. I rarely online,I don't know why,if I posted new pictures,I got so excited but those excitements lasted for only 2 days.
4. My Facebook is like a fridge,where I only opened them to look for something,then closed them tight.
5. Too many annoying cousins and relatives that..hmm,you know what I mean,right?
6. Heck,I still got my blog and Twitter.
7. I don't want to be social network maggots!
8. Last one - Nowadays, I prefer to be invisible

Since I'm no longer a Blackberry user,I don't think I have problem if I don't have any social network,I still have a blast all time.I was mistaken,I thought I could not live without it. Things already turned into another story now.

I am completely happy with my life.

MAN VS FACIAL CARE

I've been struggling with my facial problems since I was a little kid.Okay,I lied.Since I was 14 or something,if I wasn't mistaken.Unlike those beautiful boys,I have no beautiful skin.I have a very normal skin for Malaysian guy,which has some acne here and there,with oily face and also,scars are like fucking everywhere!

I also have been this type,I don't know what type since the name is too difficult to remember,Garnier for Men user! Yeah,it really works.It blemishes and cleanses all of those stupid impurities in my face,literally eliminates all of my acnes,leaving only scars behind.I feel like,it was the very first time I found a skincare product worth to buy!

However,I was so stupid.One day,I went to Watson and buy another skincare,which I thought it was the one I usually wore.I applied it to my face,two times a day.A week after,that fucking pimples were there once again in my face.In my cheek,nose,forehead,every part of my face!

Now,it's been three days I didn't wear any skincare product.I feel so undeniably fresher than Febreze! I don't know,I tend to believe things happened for reasons.One sure thing is I need to stop putting too much chemical substances into my face! What do you guys think?

Tapi emak selalu pesan,budak lelaki kalau takde jerawat,tak hensem lah...

THAT MINI 'FOREVER ALONE' MOMENT

This happened to me,lately and frequently.One day,I have decided to jogging alone,simply because those friends who are used to jog with me past semesters have classes during evening,since we were all not in the same courses.

Then,the moment when I started to jog....People around gave me this kind of look.....

They were staring at me like,Kenapa dia sorang-sorang? Mana kawan-kawan dia..Hmm,something like that! Some more,Loser lah sial mamat tu,forever a loner! Even worse,Dia ni mesti perangai macam sial,sebab tu takde siapa nak kawan dengan dia....

I admit,I have mixed up well with the society.I have established a warm relationship with so many people.Just like you,I have friends,here and there.Not saying,I'm lovable by them,but I know my friends are way more larger in amount compared to my enemies.

At certain stages,an unpleasant feeling dropped by for a while and I suddenly thought that I need to be alone.I repeat,I need time to be alone.I need think to myself without any distractions.I need to detect what is my problems.I need to explore why I am so fucked up.I need to jog at least two rounds in order to get my Jared Leto's body.

Yeah,I need to be alone,for so fucking many reasons!

To be honest,I don't give a damn that much actually.People can think whatever they want,and I will remain as cool as ever! Moreover,heroes are mostly loners,just think of Spiderman...Sexy sexy! Well,any of you experienced this?

CHOCOLATE CHOCOLATE CHOCOLATE

Everybody loves chocolate.Like,who doesn't right? No one seems can forget the sensational feeling when you put it into your mouth and chewing it softly with the closed eyes.What a mini happiness moment!

I'm pretty sure all of you got your own favorite kinds of chocolate,aren't you? I used to have my favorite one before,but I just don't have any idea what is the name of the chocolate..It all looks the same,semua bentuk siput pantai tuuu,similar shapes but different species and tastes as well.I'm not sure if it's available in Malaysia,because if i wasn't mistaken,my mother brought the chocolate from somewhere,I never asked.

Whatever,the fact is no so many people can resist their temptation towards chocolate.You name it,Cadbury,Mars,Snickers,Kit Kat,Kinder Bueno,Ferrero Rocher, Nestle Milkybar and the list goes on until tomorrow.Currently,my favorite is this one..

Yeah,I know it is wafer but I prefer to consider it as chocolate! I don't know.It just tastes so good.If normal-sized Kit Kat won't be able to satisfy you so bad,you seriously need to grab this.

What's your favorite?

BEST/SADDEST KOREAN DRAMA EVER

Korean drama? Eww.There must be some of you nowadays who can't stand the word Korea.Yes,here Korea,there Korea,everything's Korea.So overrated,right? However,you need to trust me on this very post.

Last night,I watched this Korean drama called Autumn In My Heart.First of all,can you believe the drama came out on 2000,and I just watched it,like very now,on 2012? Screw me,I am 12 years late! Anyway,thumbs up for me,I managed to finish all 16 episodes in just a day.

How many of you watched it already? Well,I don't think I should summarize the drama,since most of you knew how was the story,right? Enough said,it was the best,the most sad Korean drama have I ever watched so far.Everything was set-up so beautifully,until I felt like....malas la nak describe....

What's wrong with me,I'm watching so many sad stories lately.Whatever,any ideas,for any awesome dramas or movies? Couple days ago,I watched Koizora.

Bilik gua banjir bhai tengok Autumn In My Heart ni

PEOPLE OF THE YEAR

I can't believe that 2011 is going to end,very soon.Wow,time flies really fast,I don't even realized it passed by.See the post title? People of The Year? It sounds over the edge right? Who cares.I'm going to list all of those people who I just met this year but managed to make me feel like I have known them forever.This is going to be a a very long post.You better scroll it to the bottom,okay?

Nur Syuhaida

She changed me,completely,inside out.I never thought it was her! Well,that was life,full with surprises.I used to be a cracked egg,but she turned me into the golden one.It happened so fast,so sudden.Until this moment,half part of my life still can't believe this.Dramatic much,huh? I love you,Rainbow

Wan Ahmad Fareez

He was probably the closest human being I have ever encountered with.He was my roommate,the bestfriend,oopps,brother! This might sounds gay but we shared everything,stories,experiences,problems,clothes,foods,you name it.Wow,I miss you!

Muhammad Farhan & Myra Shariffudin

Let me introduce you to my parents.Yes,they have been a very good parents to me and Fareez.Especially,my father,Farhan...don't be too excited if you read this but you are among the coolest people have I ever knew,seriously.So unpredictable and adventureous! Ohh,my mother,Myra,she was weird,but I like her.Her laugh can travel a thousand miles,it was so loud! Damn,I had a lot of blast altogether with them,a lot!

Adik sayang emak dengan ayah sangat-sangat...*muntah darah!

Syafiq Muhammad

Wow! I knew him since last year,but we're getting close started from this year.Listen,he was the most funny,outgoing,outrageous and hilarious creature ever! I never met someone like him before.He was like electricity,he generated everything into something that can be laughed off like there's no tomorrow! I don't know how to thank him,for making my life full with endless laugh and maximum enjoyment! Sugar sugar sugar!

Hazim Yusof

He was my classmate.I knew him since I was in Part 1,then we're getting closer day by day.Well,I always envied him for so many reasons! Hahaha.First,he was so hardworking! Second,he was so good-looking! Third,he was so popular! I am so sure you guys who own Twitter account out there know him well,right?

Syed Abdullah

He was the most handsome friend of mine.Don't be fooled by his innocent puppy eyes,he was a very athletic for your information.No wonder every girls were dying to be with him.We're hang out a lot,talked a lot,laugh a lot,I hope everything will remain awesome as ever

Mohammad Ridzuan

He was my own Ipman,but with his own trilogy! He was my roommate since three semesters ago,it's been a long time I have spent my life with this guy! He was super-funny,he usually said ridiculous things but never failed to make me burst out laughing! We were so close,yeah,I don't want to lose someone that is so cool like him.

Actually,I have so many other people to be listed down here.I'm not saying that only these people were actually there in my life throughout the time but these are the people who play major roles which make them massive characters in this entire year.Who changed me.Who created me.Who never failed to make me feel like I actually have a good life!

DO YOU GUYS REMEMBER 'BAHASA F'?

Do you? Well,if you're in the same age range as me,which is born in the early 90s,not knowing what the hell is Bahasa F is a law-breaking act of teenage life.Hahaha,kidding!

I first heard about this fucking odd language when I was in Standard 2...When a girl,a classmate of mine,I didn't remember her name,said to me,

" Khafalifis sifihatfat? Mafamcamfam defemamfam jefe?

I was a little bit sick that time,if I wasn't mistaken.I was like,get off from my fucking face you female dog! But at the same time,I wondered,what was the language that came out from her mouth? Then,asked her.She said it was Bahasa F.Later after that,she took a piece of paper and taught me everything about it.

When I was mastering that language,I used Bahasa F a lot with my friends.Seriously,I felt so much like Russian spy who knows all the secret codes.Besides,not all people understood the conversation,since not all have that interest to use Bahasa F.Yeah,I miss my old times! A lot!

Mafacamfam mafanafa defenganfan afawakfak sefemuafa? Bofolehfeh kefe cafakapfap defenganfan Bahafahasafa Fe? <-- Thumbs up if you understand this!